Lauren Goodger suffered a miscarriage while she was competing on 'Dancing on Ice'.
The 'Only Way is Essex' star has revealed she was "quite far" into the pregnancy with her then-boyfriend Jake McLean when she lost her baby three years ago.
Speaking to new! magazine, she said: "I don't know how or why it came up but I revealed on 'In Therapy' that I had lost a baby with my last ex. I'm not sure why I opened up about it, it's not something I'd planned to talk about but it just happened. I remember thinking, 'Why did I just say that?' The therapist clearly got under my skin more than I realised. I was pregnant twice. Then with my second boyfriend I was too scared.
"I was like 'What am I going to do?' That went on and on for a bit longer than it should have. I was on a TV show 'Dancing On Ice' that was quite intense when that happened. I had to try and perform and I was quite far gone.
"I'm the type of person that if something happens, I deal with it and move on. That's how I am. And I feel at that time, I was working - not on purpose - it was just how my life was going. It's not something I really addressed. I just carried it on."
But the 30-year-old beauty's decision to plough ahead with work meant that she never got to grieve for the baby she lost - and neither did her boyfriend at the time Jake.
She explained: "I didn't think about it. And he never spoke about it to me. Ever. Never, ever mentioned it. It's weird. I went through mad times after that."
Despite losing her baby three years ago and aborting her child, who she was expecting with her then-boyfriend Mark Wright, when she was 19, Lauren is keen to be a mother and thinks her jailbird boyfriend Joey Morrison would make the perfect father.
She said: "He'd make a great dad one day."
However, her close friend Jodie doesn't agree with her and thinks Joey - who was sentenced to 17 years in prison for kidnap among other things - isn't good for her.
She said: "She wants a baby while he's on day release so essentially she'll be doing the entire pregnancy on her own."